wach chu chi ich wach chu gech

letters..writen by Daryl Lindo [the reply]

2005-09-11T01:07:00.000-07:00

Dearest,
It could have been those years, those caring and trusting eyes, that had caught me off guard. in the past 19 years of my solitary existence, i had learned, once, the piercing pain of losing in love's game. such an ordeal had convinced me to never again yield to the once euphoric experience, i knew, as love. it became, for me, a pathetic reality, a hoax, waiting to bare itself to anyone who believed in it. i was submerged and in fact, was almost drowned in such cynical beliefs until our paths crossed in the most unexpected of times. to tell you honestly, i had kissed destiny in gratitude for blessing me with the chance of sharing your company and most especially for making me enjoy my waking moments because of you.
I had never been so honest, so understanding and so true in my entire life. You made me realize that I was actually capable of doing those things. Memories of the first time we met filled up my mind. We talked and talked and talked endlessly like we were already a part of each other’s lives before, in our past lifetimes. Perhaps I would say that there was really no sudden gush of magic, (as those, so extensively described in romance novels), but just pure unpretentious companionship and friendship. I shared with you most of my thoughts and my past existence and friendship. I shared with you most of my thoughts and my past experiences without much hesitation and embarrassment and you readily did the same. It was that time that I earned another priceless treasure; I had your friendship as well as your love.
Your stares were genuine, your smile was so reassuring that it made me feel that you were someone whom I could confine to, someone whom I could trust without being afraid of being judged or criticized. Falling for you was easy. It was like, things worked together to make me understand how much I love you. It wasn’t until now that I had come to realize that God made me fall in love before, so that I could become more mature and more ready for another relationship and most especially, so that I could become more worthy of the love you have so sincerely offered me.
Being with you is one of the best things that has ever happened in my life. As such each day unfolds, I came to learn new things about you and I came to discover and to comprehend your mysteries. As I slowly became a part of your life and you became mine, I live each day, so blissfully contented with your love and I look forward to knowing and loving you more each day.
Always,

letters..writen by Daryl Lindo

2005-09-06T07:29:00.000-07:00

Dearest,
you never told me i was beautiful. but instead, you made me feel that i was more... that i was beyond "Beautiful." your sweet, silently admiring gazes were enough to make me feel secure. i remembered clearly, one of your visits at our house. i wasn't informed that you would come. so, i welcomed you with my hair partially disheveled, and my shirt somewhat creased from my interrupted sleep. you stared at me so lovingly and so innocently like you never cared how disastrous i looked at that particular moment. i instantly felt the enveloping assurance of your love and the comfort of your nurturing emotions. this was one of those things which made me closer to you, small things which made me fall so deeply in love with you. at this particular instant, i realized how much you accepted me as who i really was, without question, without any hesitation, one thing which i knew sets you apart from the rest. i never really asked you to do me such a feat, but you did it so unconditionally and wholeheartedly and you never expected ntyhing from me whatsoever. you were simply there, offering your sincerest feelings for me and it was more than i could ask for.
as i look back at the memories we had, i really do not know what brought us together, what made us so hopelessly in love with each other. our closest friends often tell us that we were different, as a matter of fact, so entirely different. you were a sports enthusiast, a basketball fanatic and i was nothing near an NBA playoffs viewer. but i would always fondly look abck at the ver first game i watched with you. it was there that you made me appreciate things in life that i had once ignored, making me see the beauty in those things i once detested. remember the time i took you to the poetry session i was so excited about? i knew beforehand and was well aware that you were a poetry nonbeliever, someone who did not feel its magic , yet you agreed to come and watch it with me. i was afraid that you would not enjoy yourslef but my fears disintegrated when i saw you (thinking that i was not looking) hid your tears when a beautiful, emotional striking verse was shared to the group. it was one of the sweetest gestures i ahve seen in my entire life.
as i think about it now, i realize that what made us cohere to each other was our differences. these differences did not hinder us nor block us from exploring each other's life more, but instead it was in hose differences that we found our connection. as our realtionship's grew, i know that we would discover more of each other...more differences...more truths...more mysteries... which would make us stronger and would make us hold on to each other, cherishing every bit of moment, we have and will have together,

always...

hmmm..this made me think really hard

2005-08-05T08:11:00.000-07:00

chewing gum is really gross
chewing gum i hate the most..

woah..i really enjoyed watching "Charlie and the Chocolate factory"

chosko,,kya lng hndi ko pa nappnuod ung if only..

this made me think really hard..

i had this very unusual dream. i saw that man..bakit kaya?

they say that dreams signifies the things or people you long for..these are the things you want to happen in your life..signs? hints? this made me think the whole day..well, actually, kapag lang nagkaakroon ako ng time alone,, i'll just keep quiet tapos magbabalance ng mga bagay.

there are instances wherein i only see that man in my mind. i try to erase it off but sometimes--IT JUST REALLY CREEPS ME OUT. i seek challenge, new heights..so is this it?

anyway, when jino, kizia and i were having our first dinner together at yellow cab, we started thinking how do we got to know each other. kasi based on our personalities--we have nothing in common!! oo we do like to laugh a lot, i mean, yes! we do love laughing our hearts out. pero ano na nga ba ung common thing between us??

we had this conclusion:
si martin: brat
si kizia: bitch
si marcia: aktibista
si jino: tahimik
si jana: bakla
si ariane: matalino/ate

sige nga---connect the dots..let's see kung ano yung makakapagsabing nagkakaisa kami...

tama nga ba?

2005-07-30T07:04:00.000-07:00

sa'n mapupulot ang pag asa
may katuwiran ba ang sana
ngiti ko ang iyong galak
langit ko ang iyong kandungan

permiso sa isang araw na
makasama ka
abiso ng pusong bulag
na humahanga

tama bang aminin na nating may taning itong pag ibig natin
dakila man wlang kasaysayang kakapit sa bulag na pag ibig

san hihingi ng patawad
kung walang dahilan
tangis ko ang yong luha
nais ko ang iyong kalayaan

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just remembered MAYONNAISE singing this one:

Mula nang makilala ka, aking mahal
'Di ako mapalagay
Sa kakaisip ko sa 'yo
Lagi na lang ikaw ang alaala ko
Kahit nasaan ka man
Larawan mo'y natatanaw
Maging sa pagtulog, ay panaginip ka
Pagkat ang nais ko sana
Kapiling ka sa t'wina
Ano ba'ng nakita
Ng puso kong ito sa 'yo
Kapag ika'y kasama
Anong ligaya ko sinta

Bakit labis kitang mahal
Yakap mo'y 'di ko malimutan
Bakit labis kitang mahal
Sumpa man, iniibig kita

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coincidence or is it just me?
naiiba ang mood?
very contradicting ang songs!!!hahahaha!!!!

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You make me feel like i can get lost inside your eyes
I feel closer to the sky when you save the day with just a smile
Just a smile

chosko..this song was played all over again last wednesday!!!
but in fairness..it was fun..may 1000 pa!!hahaha!!
eventhough jason got mad at me for not attending the "supposed to be" practice..hehehe
had another bonding moment with ATE, MARCIA, JINO, MARTIN, KIZIA and JANA..

thursday came,,,we had a triple overtime sa practice..
hmm...we were not surprised anymore..
expecting that it would come..but i'm still confused..minsan ayoko na talagang maniwala sa mga sinasabi mo e..seryoso..wag mo nang itanong..just look at yourself..

when would i be able to finish all the requirements???haha..we have this paper in art apre wherein we have to "appreciate" the spolarium without even mentioning something about soain and rome!! hayyy.. then!! we also have a thought paper in poligov..navvibes ko na mahirap xa..hahahah!!!

oh! oh! oh! i already passed my GMG assignment..woah!! so creepy.. did i do well kaya? i dunno..

...do i want?

2005-07-27T05:14:00.000-07:00

do i really want freedom?

yes..i do..

but do they like to give you that very thing you've been wanting for too long/ well, not that long..but it's the same right?

will i be alright afterwards?

yes,, because i would be free..i can do anything without hesitation..

this is not an obligation. it think we're doing this because it is our DUTY. but love is not WORK!!

its supposed to be LOVE!!!wahahahahah!!i should be focusing more on things that have sense in them..

i'm too young for this shit..

GMG script!!!hahahah!!i have no idea on how am i gonna end my script..

plus,, nauubusan na ako ng words!!!!

where could my real sunshine be?

2005-07-23T22:51:00.001-07:00

you are my SUNSHINE
my only SUNSHINE
you make me happy
when skies are gray
you may never know dear
how much i love you
please don't take my SUNSHINE away
the other night, dear, as i lay sleeping
i dreamed i held you in my arms.
you are my SUNSHINE
my only SUNSHINE.
please don't take my SUNSHINE away.

on thursday?????

2005-07-21T04:49:00.000-07:00

yesterday..we watched little mermaid!!!haha!!ang happy!!once in a while you should watch movies like that..it will not only let you sleep, but also it relaxes your mind from all the tension pain brought to you by this big world..it makes you feel young again--no problems..no schooling..no darkness...only the sea...

had a talk with my best pal, ALENA, last night..missed her so much!![her????] hehe..i stopped for a while and told her, "minsan nagtataka ako kung lalake ba ako o babae..puro kasi lalake kausap ko.." she just laughed at me!!wahaha!!ano ba ito..

first assignment in gmg..

Somehow you, yes you, got to land a primetime spot for your very own weekly TV talk show. You are also the program's head scriptwriter, and get to pick your guests and topics to tackle for each week. Your pilot episode is coming in a week, and your producer is asking for your script. Your task is to write a two to three minute introductory spiel about yourself and what your show is going to be all about.

what am i gonna do?????

i'm doomed!!!!wahahahahaha!!!

i cant make my brains work!!

ate kooks, don't let me do this!!!wahahaha!!

anyway.. NIKO inspired me so much with regards to the friendship thingy.. but i guess everything's fine with us now...we all had a talk with JINO that made us feel quite okay now..

hmmm..ano ba yan..open forums made me think really hard..but not ABOUT THE TOPIC, really..sometimes i would just stare in space and think of the possibilities of having no *tut* at all..
wahahaha
too obvious!!

i wonder how would my life could be if i entered college in a single body, with no chains at all....

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would it make me happy? would i feel sad? would i feel free?

i guess...........wait.. i can't guess...i'm starting to get confused..

wait, im already confused!!

"some people are just plain selfish...those bitc***s wanted everything for themselves....sad to say...i am one of those bitc***s..."

the moment i saw you cry

2005-07-19T06:22:00.000-07:00

wlanghiya..

i'm a cry baby talaga!!!!

i cried again in front ot MARTIN, KIZIA, ATE ARIANE, MARCIA & RJ[isang magndang gabi!!!!]

really, honestly speaking, i was so depressed this morning. kahit pla nung umaga,,

i'm gonna tell you the whole truth about myself....

martin was shocked knowing that i was a cry baby. he didn't know that this is how i react in things na katulad ng GANUN..for me, friendship is the happiest thing a person could have for free..kaya i value friendship more than how much i value my boyfriend..maybe that is how i feel towards situations like those. [maybe in time it'll be the other way around..wahahahahah!!!]

tama na nga..
i don't want to talk about it..

nico, if you're reading my blog right now,,,wow.. thank you for the comment..
i really appreciated it.. i was so touched..in terms of friendship yun right?
it was not the thing that i was thinking but since you have said it, i remembered that i forgot something...my friends back there..who were with me all along..

but it was as if i'm the only one who still wants to be friends with them all this time..
[althought there are some exceptions to the rule..aylabyu NANAY!!]

had a jamming sessions with the guys who saw me crying..katamad nang itype ang name nila e..

here it goes:

i'm keeping my hopes up
waiting for you now
wondering if you would come in my life
patiently waiting anticipating....

ooppss..at this very moment i forgot the lyrics..hehehe

2005-07-16T23:20:00.001-07:00

clrnce_dude: umm..siguro this will serve as a lesson for all of us
clrnce_dude: we should never ever test love..
clrnce_dude: naffel nten xa..
clrnce_dude: we can never learn how to love that person kasi mas okay
clrnce_dude: kapg ung love biglaan..
clrnce_dude: kasi pag bglaan, dun mo lng mffeel kung gano kasrap mgmahal..
clrnce_dude: ako ganun tingn ko..
clrnce_dude: kapg ayw na, ayawan na tlga..
clrnce_dude: wla na ung batry e,,
clrnce_dude: pag ba may flashlight ka ts nwlan ng batrya mabubuhay mo ba siya ulit?clrnce_dude: [ang drama ko]

this isn't the usual me!!
the confusing state of our mind is not normal, are they?

thanks to nico, who performed last thursday, i think, im in love with a new song!!

The Special Two by Missy Higgins

i've hardly been outside my room in days
cause i don't feel that i deserve the sunshine's rays
the darkness helped until the whiskey wore away
and it was then i realized the conscience never fades
when you're young you have this image of your life:
that you'll be scrupulous and one day even make a wife
and you make boundaries you'd never dream to cross,
and if you happen to you wake completely lost
but i will fight for you, be sure that
i will fight for you until we're the special two once again.

and we could only need each other, we'll bleed together,
our hands will not be taught to hold another's
cause we're the special two
and we could only see each other we'll breath together
these arms will not be taught to need another's
cause we're the special two

i remember someone old once said to me:
"that lies will lock you up with truth the only key."
but i was comfortable and warm inside my shell
and i couldn't see this place could soon become my hell.
so is it better to tell and hurt or lie to save their face?
well i guess the answer is don't so it in the first place.
i know i'm not deserving of your trust from you right now
but if by chance you change your mind you know i will not
let you down cause we were the special two,a nd we will be again

and we will only need each other, we'll bleed together
our hands will not be taught to hold another's
cause we're the special two.
and we could only see each other, we'll breathe together
these arms will not be taught to need another's
cause we're the special two

i step outside my mind's eye's for a minute.
and i look over me like a doctor looking for disease, or something
that could ease the pain
but nothing cures the hurt you bring on by yourslef
just remembering, just remembering how we were

when we would only need each other, we'd bleed together
these hands would not be taught to hold another's
we were the special two
and we could only see each other, we'd bleed together
these arms will not be taught to need another's
cause we're the special two.

what a sad song.. i hope he won't be like that---wishing for a relationship that would last for an eternity..
wish hopes are really that high..

wish they could just accept truths that fast..

accept the pain..

face fears..

no judgements..

no backstabbing..

firts blog..
deppresd feeling..